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Why do I feel like crying when I look at you and see the lack of proper training that has gone into your life? The lack of respect for others, yourself and the one that you say is your God?  How you cannot see the vast desert wasteland that is your life is a pitious mystery. You have nothing.  You own nothing. You have nowhere to go. You have no goals. There is nothing to live for. Come.  Come to the fountain. Drink deeply of the living water that is always already there. Restore your soul. Find real unconditional unconditional unconditional, did I say unconditional, unconditional love that will make you whole. And peace, peace for your family and your soul. Are you aware? Does that make you want more than what you've had up til now? You've been cheated by what you thought was your freedom.

I don't believe we ever completely outgrow them. There appears to be within us all the desire for heros and heroines. Whether to be one or to have need of one. Which will it be? Both? Not any? What a tragedy. A travesty of nature to forget such happenings. :) dream. Dream big. But don't mistake the trappings for the real thing. That would be insanity.

You see more than I ever will. Oh Lord of my soul. You are sight for blindness, and You will lead me. You guide my steps though I cannot see. Selah I look down into the crack of darkness that is this back alley deep in the darkness between these two buildings, and I see...You. You are there. You solicitously guide me patiently by my outstretched hand as feeble I lurch and sprawl my way through the dark death and squalor that surrounds me outside the circle of Your protection, Your Love. Without, Without You I would be as death. YOU, YOU give without turning and YOU, YOU shelter me without letting go. Where else can I go but only to You, Oh Lord the Rock of my soul. I am not alone. Selah Praise to the One who does not leave us. Selah.  I am not alone. He is higher than I. He is the One who makes all things new. Forever I am loved and go to Him. His Grace is known. Selah I am known. Selah. It is the I AM.

Today my littles emphatically announced that I need to get married so that they could go to the wedding and see me get married.  They've never been and apparently today was the day to go.  When I said they would have to help me find someone to marry, the youngest proceeded to tell me (quite seriously) that I needed to drive slower through the WM parking lot because that was how you found men.  And then they both declared I needed to swear that I would find a man today and never ever ever leave him. Hmm.  So if you were hanging around in the WM parking lot today and I missed you, I'm very sorry.  I know our lives will never be the same.

I wish I could fill the hours with fun meaningful crazy things written with style and flourish, but alas my brain hurts from stretching all day. Is All grace anyway

It's nice to have people who care enough about you to say something and bring you up short on your downfalls. It's a miracle that God can change things and remind you to trust Him all in an instant.  Immediately.  Amazing.

Thank you God for warmth!

That I never wanted you, never needed you.   But my heart felt "Not as much as I've hurt without you."   Those words weigh down my soul every time. and I cry.

The priviledge of a lifetime is being who you are

stuck in my mind all night long

It is customary to say "Thank You" when you receive a gift. I wonder how many times I have forgotten to say thanks or how many times I expected someone else to convey my thanks when it didn't get passed on to the intended person. I pray it isn't as many times as I fear.

I'm pretty sure I'm not cut out for this. These kids drive me crazy. Wait. Crazier. :) Glad they are here anyway. Thanks to God for keeping sane(ish).