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What if I'm waiting for something that never happens?

I am afraid tomorrow will be dreadful.

They are moving my baby boy away. :(

I think we may have trouble over here. Sigh. I didn't even want him to go away for a visit today.  Bigger sigh. How am I going to make it? . and yet I know fact and fiction do not always Collide as in this world we may have wished them to once more

And I'm tired.

Today is a day of miracles. This is true because my God is a God of miracles, and He owns this day.

In more ways than one

Everyone in my house has strange bites and red rashes.  The plague had arrived.

Is it odd to dream about the same person for days on end? It typically doesn't happen to me this way. Occasionally I'll dream about people I know, but never day after day like it has been this last week. I find it personally a bit startling.  Not sure why or what is causing this.  Just know I am praying that God will do whatever it is God wants in their life.

God has a funny sense of humor sometimes.   Hearing the exact words you said to Him repeated back to you from someone else's mouth a couple of hours later is an odd feeling.

Tonight I'm asking God for God sized impossibilities.

Great opening night of biblestudy. God blessed me with an interesting group of ladies and a couple of friends from prior years to share life with this study. Looking forward to this. . Today is the 8th. Deadline is the 15th. I'm not ready! . And then another deadline begins. And another project list! Bring it on! . A couple of weeks ago a golf ball slammed into the roof of my car.  Last week a rock hit my windshield and now it needs to be replaced. I requested a prayer bubble around my vehicle.  This is getting crazy! :) . I'm doomed without sleep. I should quit playing. . I'm praying that my dreams are better tonight.  Last night I dreamed someone was skinning babies in the house and sneaking into my bedroom while I was sleeping.  Freakishly terrifying to wake up from. . Tonight I was the worst at remembering. My brain may be scattering. . If you've lived in fear for an extended period of time and had to be on guard constantly for survival, how do you get beyond alw...

John Acuff recently posted these words. " So I laugh, with a God who brings things full circle. I can’t say where I will be writing from in six years from now, but I can say who I will be writing with. A God who writes better stories than me. A God who calls me to build his kingdom not mine. A God who invites me into adventures and will not leave me alone in the fear that inevitably comes with doing anything worthwhile. I hope you get to laugh with him in six years or maybe six days. He’s got a better sense of humor than you can possibly imagine. And he loves when we dare to dream with him. " Pretty much feeling them this morning.

Here we go again.

God gave me favor in court today.  T date is scheduled for the 25th. Praying that things will align for a quick resolution, but trusting in God's timing. . Sigh. Sad and happy all at once. It's a disappointment for a good reason. . Praying for those to have God's wisdom in all things. 

1CO 2:10-13 NASB For to us God revealed them through the Spirit; for the Spirit searches all things, even the depths of God. For who among men knows the thoughts of a man except the spirit of the man which is in him? Even so the thoughts of God no one knows except the Spirit of God. Now we have received, not the spirit of the world, but the Spirit who is from God, so that we may know the things freely given to us by God, which things we also speak, not in words taught by human wisdom, but in those taught by the Spirit, combining spiritual thoughts with spiritual words. . I sit here wanting to write,  but too tired to do more than lift the pen.

There is some darkness the night cannot hold. . My God is big enough. . What a tiny pebble this must seem to Him. . Do you know what I know? . Capture those thoughts that hide in the darkness. Take them prisoners and torture them with light.

2 Corinthians 6:3-4 NASB ...giving no cause for offense in anything, so that the ministry will not be discredited, but in everything commending ourselves as servants of God...

It's not fair. That's what I told God today. Not that it changes anything, But it's what I was feeling. Circumstances may be frustrating, But at least I'm complaining about it to the One who can do something. Thank goodness God is good at listening. 

Keep hearing the Lionel Richie song "Hello" stuck in my head.  Not too bad of an option actually considering I like the song. . Yesterday was a one last aggravating experience. I didn't want to be the one to tell them, but perhaps it's best that I did. It came out well, God helping me, but what are the repercussions I'll be reaping?  . I'm praying for a lot of peace, joy and healing around here today. . The days are busy. They are full of things to consider and do. Something more than I can see right now being so focused on the immediate, but it is back there in my brain processing I'm sure. . Interpretation of what is said vs what is heard can be a BIG problem. Frustrating. Confusing. Etc. Never mind the good intentions behind the words,  sometimes it still hurts. And yet it's usually just in our thoughts.  Bizarre people that we are. . I really wish I had a clue more often. :D