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Great opening night of biblestudy. God blessed me with an interesting group of ladies and a couple of friends from prior years to share life with this study. Looking forward to this. . Today is the 8th. Deadline is the 15th. I'm not ready! . And then another deadline begins. And another project list! Bring it on! . A couple of weeks ago a golf ball slammed into the roof of my car.  Last week a rock hit my windshield and now it needs to be replaced. I requested a prayer bubble around my vehicle.  This is getting crazy! :) . I'm doomed without sleep. I should quit playing. . I'm praying that my dreams are better tonight.  Last night I dreamed someone was skinning babies in the house and sneaking into my bedroom while I was sleeping.  Freakishly terrifying to wake up from. . Tonight I was the worst at remembering. My brain may be scattering. . If you've lived in fear for an extended period of time and had to be on guard constantly for survival, how do you get beyond alw...

Deciding to turn down a "name your price" job offer was both easier and harder than expected. . God's ways are better than mine! . 3?! I may end up with 3?! Wow. Cool. :) . Seriously waiting for God's timing is not all that hard when you know His will is always best in every way.

my mind is racing with all of the "to do" before the end of this week. i'm blessed that my friend is helping me or i'd never manage. i'm already exhausted-ish. BUT life is sweet i'm blessed God is good. always

Glad for my family this weekend.  Thankful the kids got to go to an amazing camp and make new friends. Blessed with Godly parents. Both my Mom and my Dad are truly great people. Praying for healing for those who don't have that experience. Being a good parent is harder than you think.

Sometimes you have to look back in order to be hilariously happy about what God has saved you from. :D That's perhaps the best way I can describe the feeling I have inside after last weekend. . Last weekend I took a trip to visit some of my greatest lifelong friends.  It was a blessing and exactly what I needed. Loved catching up with all my friends and learning what God was doing for them. It was sad sweet to see some of them aging but so happy in their relationship with Jesus. . God answered prayers for perfect weather for our crawfish boil. I've never been to a boil before, but it was delicious. Learned how to peel my own crawfish. :D Ate until I had enough and still they had piles left over. . Along the way I saw some "old acquaintances". I'm so relieved that God provided exactly what they needed.  Isn't God amazing! And I'm also so happy that God set me free from that happening. . The Sunday service was a huge blessing! God blessed with His presence, ...

Had fun with the family today. Kicked the sidewalk. I think I broke my foot. We went swimming. Homemade ice cream. Brownies. Grilled. Yummy. Warm sunburns. Lots of energy.  Not me!

It's bizarre how low my spirit can go at just the thought that I'm not enough.

1 Corinthians 2:7-9 NLT No, the wisdom we speak of is the mystery of God —his plan that was previously hidden, even though he made it for our ultimate glory before the world began. But the rulers of this world have not understood it; if they had, they would not have crucified our glorious Lord. That is what the Scriptures mean when they say, “No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him.” . I have learned not to believe my eyes or what my foolish heart will tell me, but this I do believe, God is with me.

... sat in a room with a bunch of people all connected through bad decision making, and was told it was unusual that we all got along and liked each other and worked together.  I just assumed that was how it was supposed to be!  LOL.  I am too surprised at humanity it seems. . ... watched as a woman declared her intentions to voluntarily walk away from the best things she has ever accomplished, and will ever help create.  I feel nothing but sorrow and pity for her, and for what she could have been, if only.  And therein the phrase, "there but for the grace of God, go I" becomes even more of a reality.  OH! How different my life could have been! . ... am in some ways scared that the future holds BIG things that I can't hold, yet Knowing God is in control. . ...realize that I may have to fight for what God wants to give me, because even the Israelites had to fight to conquer the Promised Land. . ...held up my pants with a safety pin. . ...talked. and talked. ...

I think my tax season may have arrived.  Yippee!  One or two weeks vs 25! :D I'll take it.

Some friends did a lovely thing this evening.  They planned a secret photo shoot for my kids.  I'm glad and excited to see how it turned out! . I have wonderful friends. . I put the kids to bed forever late past their bedtime because I forgot I hadn't changed the time forward on the clock hanging on the wall.  I hope we aren't sorry tomorrow. . Tomorrow the kids get to go take spring pictures with two of their younger siblings.  They wanted to know if their mom was going to be there.  I don't think she is, but nobody said for sure. . Tonight's bible story was partially about the Foolish Nabal and his wife Abigail.  In this particular Action Bible version, David states that he is going to ask Abigail to marry him.  My oldest said, "You have to ask someone to marry you?  Wouldn't you be scared?  Isn't that scary?"  :D  Great unexpected opportunity to explain how that should work...VERY CAREFULLY.  The kid was very traumatized by ...

9 months later I still occasionally struggle not to be bitter. I still haven't dealt with the boxes that clutter my closet floor, all still full of things that bring back the memories.  I realize that I'm so much better off, and that God had His hand on me and worked out everything, but every once in a while, that old hurt over how I was treated still matters. I wish it were gone.  God please take it away. . My life is so much better in comparison to where I have been, that I've never felt more blessed.

Thankful for a warn place to sleep tonight.

For bedtime. That I finished lots of work at the office today/this week. That I have a great person who takes care of my kids and puts them to bed when I get home late. AND makes me cookies! That I get to see our baby brother tomorrow. Sleep. Safety. A friend of mine and her kids are in danger tonight. Scary. For medicine that helps me breathe. For God's help and wisdom as I face all of my tomorrows. That smile.

I may be done! Merry Christmas everyone

Writing Christmas cards is an exercise in patience. It always takes longer than expected. But I love getting them, so I assume other people enjoy receiving them too. Off they go. . I love Christmas. I have shopping to do. It snuck up on me! . This picture reminds me of so many things, people and gifts. Love for all. His birthday.