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The last two days feels like four.

I think we may have trouble over here. Sigh. I didn't even want him to go away for a visit today.  Bigger sigh. How am I going to make it? . and yet I know fact and fiction do not always Collide as in this world we may have wished them to once more

And I'm tired.

Starting small deflates the dream bubble to reality size.  It's easy to have a grandiose plan, but when you realize it means dedicated work, that's the kicker. Achieving the second lap is both harder and easier than the first.  The first time your excitement carries the day. The following times are just staying true to your promise. Finishing something you haven't done in a long while feels good, even if no one ever knows but you. :)

Today is a day of miracles. This is true because my God is a God of miracles, and He owns this day.

Three separate times today I was reminded to remember God's answers to prayer, once in conversation and twice in separate devotionals.  No coincidence I think.  From the Passover in one, to communion in the last, I was reminded that God provides.  Thank You Lord! . Today one family brought at least 10 children to church tonight. They do this all voluntarily.  God be praised. . The lady at Braum's remembers me and is always so friendly.  She gave me ice cream for free tonight. Makes me happy. . My kids made it a full week without egregious behaviour.  They earned back the privilege of class time. God is really helping them. (He's also training me to be a better parent.)  O:-) . I'm blessed way beyond. . Lord, above all, may I serve You how You best decide.

It feels like midnight. I learned a lot about myself and my limits today. God was merciful in so many ways. I'm blessed with amazing friends. I don't want to do that again anytime soon. Really.

I'm not insane. Just maybe certifiable.

Being sick for two weekends in a row makes stuff pile up at home. . My child. Reading carefully is a thing only accomplished when people are watching.  Grrr. And because of this he is far from passing. He likes to succeed. Praying he quickly learns he can successfully complete things without constant supervision. . I am glad days have endings.

It just doesn't seem possible that less than 5 minutes can change your life, but it did. And it is. God be praised.

In more ways than one

Is it odd to dream about the same person for days on end? It typically doesn't happen to me this way. Occasionally I'll dream about people I know, but never day after day like it has been this last week. I find it personally a bit startling.  Not sure why or what is causing this.  Just know I am praying that God will do whatever it is God wants in their life.

God has a funny sense of humor sometimes.   Hearing the exact words you said to Him repeated back to you from someone else's mouth a couple of hours later is an odd feeling.

My cousin is getting married today.  I am very happy for them and very glad that God brought this Christian lady into his life.  The past few years have been difficult for my cousin and his family.  He and the kids have suffered with the passing of his wife from cancer.  This new relationship is a gift. I pray that God brings them peace and a wonderful marriage blessed with His presence daily.

Tonight I'm asking God for God sized impossibilities.

Great opening night of biblestudy. God blessed me with an interesting group of ladies and a couple of friends from prior years to share life with this study. Looking forward to this. . Today is the 8th. Deadline is the 15th. I'm not ready! . And then another deadline begins. And another project list! Bring it on! . A couple of weeks ago a golf ball slammed into the roof of my car.  Last week a rock hit my windshield and now it needs to be replaced. I requested a prayer bubble around my vehicle.  This is getting crazy! :) . I'm doomed without sleep. I should quit playing. . I'm praying that my dreams are better tonight.  Last night I dreamed someone was skinning babies in the house and sneaking into my bedroom while I was sleeping.  Freakishly terrifying to wake up from. . Tonight I was the worst at remembering. My brain may be scattering. . If you've lived in fear for an extended period of time and had to be on guard constantly for survival, how do you get beyond alw...

John Acuff recently posted these words. " So I laugh, with a God who brings things full circle. I can’t say where I will be writing from in six years from now, but I can say who I will be writing with. A God who writes better stories than me. A God who calls me to build his kingdom not mine. A God who invites me into adventures and will not leave me alone in the fear that inevitably comes with doing anything worthwhile. I hope you get to laugh with him in six years or maybe six days. He’s got a better sense of humor than you can possibly imagine. And he loves when we dare to dream with him. " Pretty much feeling them this morning.

I feel that the 1st 3 days of this week have been a month long.

God gave me favor in court today.  T date is scheduled for the 25th. Praying that things will align for a quick resolution, but trusting in God's timing. . Sigh. Sad and happy all at once. It's a disappointment for a good reason. . Praying for those to have God's wisdom in all things. 

1CO 2:10-13 NASB For to us God revealed them through the Spirit; for the Spirit searches all things, even the depths of God. For who among men knows the thoughts of a man except the spirit of the man which is in him? Even so the thoughts of God no one knows except the Spirit of God. Now we have received, not the spirit of the world, but the Spirit who is from God, so that we may know the things freely given to us by God, which things we also speak, not in words taught by human wisdom, but in those taught by the Spirit, combining spiritual thoughts with spiritual words. . I sit here wanting to write,  but too tired to do more than lift the pen.