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Some days I don't mind the ogling* so much, some days I do. I think today I do. *ogling in this case is usually accompanied by random sounds of appreciation, subtly uncomfortable laughter, and other random acts which I don't need to spell out specifically.

Sometime in the night last night I woke up just enough to realize I was hurting and that I should move.  It hurt a lot to move. Like all my muscles had atrophied and needed to break from that hideous concrete shell casing dust cracking and crumbling and falling away as I moved. Like a gargoyle come to life only to lay flat out and fall back asleep again. . Someone stole my cc number today and charged crazy things. . I was a cranky lady. . I attended a drink mixing party with a pregnant lady.

Utilizing apple cider vinegar for its antibiotic treatment qualities, even at half strength, is not always pleasant. It burns like fire in the eyes! . The kids had burning questions to ask me this evening.  It's definitely more information than I wish they had knowledge to ask about for at least another few years.  I did answer, but there are just some things you can't fully explain to an 8 and 9 year old no matter what they've actually seen or heard. . Woe is me.  I took on another tax return this year and they are going to OWE MONEY.  It's not my fault, but now I'm trying to wrack my brain for all kinds of remote possibilities for other deductions before I end up breaking the bad news to them.  They are so not going to be happy.  I am so not going to enjoy saying it to them!!! . I have a collection of abandoned pen and pencils.  A new pen, pencil, crayon, or marker makes me very happy.  If I'm having a bad day, or I just want a change, I sometim...

How do you treat someone who has no grace for other people but expects it from everyone else?  It is a quandary that has long puzzled me. . What do you do when fear, anger or frustration stops you from unconditional acceptance and begins judging? . Can you accept others if you do not have a base of acceptance to fall back upon? . Is it possible to be loved?  To be loving? . In my experience it isn't enough to have head knowledge that God loves you, you must also have the human representation that you are loved and accepted as you are by at least one person, hopefully more. . You gain confidence by loving and being loved in return.  Consistently. . What if everything you say is taken to mean something personally demeaning?  What turns a person into someone in whom paranoia reigns?  I worked with some of these individuals until just recently.  It was unnerving to say the least.  It was downright despicable and immoral at the most.  Wrong is wrong is...

When you aren't willing to commit to anything more than the bare minimum, it really leaves you lacking in my esteem.