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I feel hung over

Who are we to laugh at others' imperfections

I don't want to be the shining star or the super star or the greatest or the absolute best, I just want to be solidly good. . Today I would like to run away and sleep for as long as I want.

It, it was pure accident, that brush of fingers against mine. But you, you caught your breath and lost, lost your place at the same time Purely accidental brush,  your hand against mine. caught your breath. lost your place. lost my mind

I liked that part of the world best when there was still darkness for light to shine through.

Today we decorated for Thanksgiving at my house. Everyone pitched in and had a good time.  At one point the kids were happily singing songs while scrubbing up some votive candle holders for one of the decorations.  I just stood in the hall and listened because it was so happy. :) . We practiced. Lots. We needed naps. And prayer . I got to help decorate at church while the kids played the drums and then football outside. That was fun. . A friend bought my kids slingshots. . We have had more timeouts today than all the last few months combined, but we are (hopefully) making progress. Training parents is hard. . The caramel bag exploded everywhere.  I laughed. . We watched White House Down this evening. Maybe a bit too much, but the kids were enthralled.  We now have a secret service wannabe. . If you are going to dream, Dream big . It is wrong of me, but I was glad to hear they are gone now. I pray they learn to be better wherever they land.

I think I still can't breathe.

Today I had lunch with a person I had never met before.  She accidentally poured hot water all over me. My leg feels very pink this evening. . I forgot practice so I was late.  It was fun but I missed having time with my kids.  I was looking forward to having a normal bible story and caramel night.  Maybe Thursday. . One of the work family members died yesterday morning. Cancer sucketh. . Having my arms full of adorable laughing babies this weekend was lovely.  Sigh.  If I didn't have any need to work or any other responsibilities, and I had some help, I think I could enjoy that kind of living.  I know I enjoy volunteering with those ages at the S.  The kids started calling me Mommy on the second day.  The oldest cried when I dropped them off at daycare Monday.  My kids didn't want them to leave either.  I miss them even though this house was full and crazy.  I'm glad my friend will get to see them possibly regularly so I will ...

Forever is a long time. Final.

I think I'm over my head at this new job.

My throat hurts. It's been getting worse all evening. Maybe I need more sleep. . I can't believe my vacation was just last weekend. It seems forever ago.

I can't quite explain how your answer moved me today, but if I could have, I would have held your face in my hands, looked you in the eye, and kept talking until you believed me.  Thank you for your honesty. . Tonight one of my kids prayed they could stay with me. It wasn't the one I would have expected. . This week has been oddly nice and loving at home, with polite children who improved at school work. One made remarkably notable changes in reading and comprehension. Also in writing.  It's amazing! I have no clue if that means that they were so stressed and it's better now or if there has been a breakthrough. It's got to be from everyone praying.  Keep it up! I could get used to this. . It's like these little glimpses into a brightly lit safe place, deep in the Mountains, that crack open just enough for me.  A path clears, and the light is plain to see, allowing me to see through the dark foggy crags.  Me. What a privileged.