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God is good even when I'm not. Thankful for so many things. Wishing I was awake enough to write. . Tracks in my head Last night: Wrecking ball - Miley Cyrus Send in the clowns - Barbra Streisand version This morning and evening: I knew you were Trouble - Taylor Swift Just the ending. Over and over and over and over. All. Day. Long. Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble I knew you were trouble when you walked in Trouble, trouble, trouble I knew you were trouble when you walked inTrouble, trouble, trouble

I feel like I started to get my life back after all of the cleaning that went on this weekend. I realize I still have a way to go to get rid of a bunch more storage items, but I can begin to breathe, and that's nice actually. . One of the kids laughed and said that the car wash guy was going to be my new bf. Apparently that's the impression the kid had after the kid saw his expression when we drove past.  Made me laugh. It was nice of the kid to point it out. Wish I would have seen it happening. It's nice to feel appreciated to your face occasionally. . My caseworker is sick so no new assessment tomorrow. Now I can do more things! . Mr friend saved me this weekend. Thankful for her in so many ways. . We fixed the broken light today. The raw potato thing doesn't work. And you should never use pliers to grip the side of the fixture insulator. Twisting the metal bulb base out of the fixture is messy! Needle nose pliers are the thing. My Mom said she heard to use vaseline o...

One of the kids teasingly called me mom last night. I told them they could call me that if they wanted. They seemed relieved. They haven't yet in normal conversation, but we will see. . I was told they never have called anyone Dad, not even their real dad. I know they have referred to some of their mother's bf as dad, even as "real dad", but didn't call them that to their face. And now the latest one had ditched them.  Makes me want to say terrible things. . I am thankful for God. And for fathers who are real men. Men Who follow God are some of my new heros. . Thankful for best friends. . Thankful for God helping and answering prayers tonight. In so many ways. . Thankful for Godly parents who are still amazing.

Balaam. How many times have you heard this story in your life? I heard it 4 different separate times last week. I'm pretty sure God is trying to tell me something.

"Come to Me with a thankful heart, so that you can enjoy My Presence. "

I know what some people say about Thursday, but they always wipe me out by early evening and I  can't wait to go to sleep. So instead of sleeping, I'm blogging. brilliant . 'Nuff said. . Warm. Oh so warm

Thankful for a warn place to sleep tonight.

My hand hurts from all of the forms that have to be filled out manually! It takes lots of patient endurance and lingo language to get through! I'm still not done.

For bedtime. That I finished lots of work at the office today/this week. That I have a great person who takes care of my kids and puts them to bed when I get home late. AND makes me cookies! That I get to see our baby brother tomorrow. Sleep. Safety. A friend of mine and her kids are in danger tonight. Scary. For medicine that helps me breathe. For God's help and wisdom as I face all of my tomorrows. That smile.

I can't get warm enough to sleep.

Nothing like nightmares about yourself and other people being sucked up by a tornado to get your adrenaline racing. Some died. I didn't. Yet. Still scary. . Been praying against disasters and trying to calm down ever since.

If I could change the world overnight There'd be no such thing as goodbye You'd be standing right where you were And we'd get the chance we deserve