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It feels wonderful to have a job again. I'm looking forward to this week and then VACATION!

It's those moments that really touch us, those that change our lives forever, that we must really listen to with our hearts.

God help the person who has to sort through all my various journals after I am gone.  No order!

it's scary to be new.  God help me. ` The stress of the last two years has been horrendous.  Not fun remembering.  But! God is with me!  He HAS been with me. And He WILL go before me.  He has prepared this moment and these circumstances for His glory, for His plan.  His ways are higher than my ways.  His thoughts are bigger than mine.  How great is His glory and how wonderful His provision.  He is before me and has brought me this far.  He will prepare a table for me in the presence of mine enemies!  He approves of me.  His smile is upon me, and it's a great thing. ` I know I can do this.

When you aren't willing to commit to anything more than the bare minimum, it really leaves you lacking in my esteem.

A one sided war is waged on a regular basis. . I don't think any more. It's great not to have that hanging around my neck like death waiting. . It's strange knowing that I won't be getting up in the morning to go to work. I don't like it. It's very strange and discombobulating. You would think I would take advantage of all this extra time to tackle big projects. What I am finding is that it is hard to do normal things when you don't have a normal day so you just end up bumbling through. . Some days I feel like I am getting better at this parenting thing. The other days I do a lot of mental screaming. . I love my boys. I really do. I just hope I'm not ruining them. . I have court Thursday. . Don't ever let your kids know you didn't want them. . Why do people insist on relationships with unsuitable people? . A person apologized to me this weekend for calling and complaining about their treatment at the hands of someone else. They still feel that hu...

I bought myself a new quilt today.  It's nothing special or fancy, but it was soft and comfy and perfect for traveling.  Plus it was celebratory! :D (I'm lying, I just wanted the thing.)  Quilts make me happy.  Other than books and shoes it is one of the things I almost always stare longingly at the most whenever I see them in an advertisement or in real life.  It doesn't matter that I already have more quilts than a person can normally use in a lifetime, I still love them.  My favorites are typically soft cotton summer weight quilts that have lots of stitching.  Most of mine have memories attached so I almost hate to use them, but the best part of a quilt's life is right toward the end when they've been washed a thousand times and the cotton fabric is super thin and just wraps around you like your favorite shirt or jeans.  Comforting! I thank God for today.